My blog has taken a crazy turn in the past few months. Partially because I’m not writing as much as I was and partially because I’m finding my way with what I do want to write.
I’m not there yet.
The good news is though that lately I’ve been able to step back and look at my life with clearer eyes. Until recently, I’ve been caught in a swirl of change and living my days with extreme effort. But in the past few weeks, I’ve felt myself coming back by not allowing the fears of change to swell up around me as they have done now for awhile.
That is good news. It means I will make it.
I had doubts?
I sure did. I’ve spent many hours in my living room chair wanting to cry because I could no longer take the newness or sadness or change. I’ve begged God on more than one occasion to give me my old life back. I want good friends, a close family and a home I can call my own. Enough of this moving about and starting over with everything.
But then maybe that’s also the direction He’s taking me with my writing.
All I know is what I’ve written in the past no longer satisfies me.
I think most of us get to a point with our writing where we sense God changing our paths. As for me, I’m still stuck at the railroad crossing waiting for the train to pass.
So I ask you to be patient with me as I find my focus. It’s there. Always is.
So tell me – what’s God turning around in your life today?