Friday, May 31, 2013
The Blocks of Life
I didn't see a new home in our future. But God did. Instead, I've spent the last six years worrying if I would keep my home or have one again. Today I am surrounded by boxes. Been that way since we left Florida in the fall of 2011 to move to Texas for what we hoped would be our answer. In a way, it was. It led us back to home to PA.
Like anyone, I want my life to line up. Be orderly. Make sense. For years it did. I planned what college, when to get married and what kind of work I wanted to do. A few skips here and there but manageable. The last few years I didn't see coming. Trying to wrap my head around the idea that our lives won't always line up as building blocks is still difficult.
I find myself wondering when the next wall will tumble down.
I don't like that. So I'm working really hard to trust that God will be there to catch me when life does crash again. He did before. Maybe not in the way I wanted but he did.
Life happens. I'm learning to go with it no matter what direction it takes me. I'm throwing away the preconceived ideas that everything must work out. Because it doesn't. And for good reasons although figuring those out might not always happen here on earth.
So I'm building again. Not just my home but my life. I'm learning to take what comes and be happy about it. Not saying it's an easy process but it's what's in front of me today.
What kind of building is God doing in your life?