Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Confession time

I have a confession to make.

I haven't been giving God all the credit he deserves.

Many of my friends on Facebook know we are building a house. I mean that in the literal sense. My husband and I are doing all the work with only a little help from a few people we hired on the roof and to help him lay the block. Otherwise, it's all on us.

Several people have asked when we expect to move in. I give vague answers because I don't know. It's not that I'm waiting for the carpet to be laid or the appliances to be installed. Far from that. I'm actually hoping and praying we can move in with one bathroom done, the walls sheet rocked and the outlets covered. Forget siding, tile, curtains, and cupboards or counter tops.

It's been a hard six years since Florida and the recession. But my husband and I are still together and now living back home surrounded by friends and family. I used to keep a blessing sheet so I could see God at work in the little things--it also helped me survive. But now I trust Him more.

He's at work again you see. We're building this house on limited funds. People can no longer get loans who are self-employed. It no longer matters that your credit scores rock or you are debt free. No, the recession changed all that. So we are building with the money we have left after a long run of unemployment and part-time jobs and starting over. That doesn't leave a lot. My husband is building it full time. That means no income. Years ago, when we built our first home, he worked days at his real job and built at night.

When you are pushing sixty, that scenario doesn't work anymore. He tried it.

So we are in this race to get into our house before we run out of money. And with winter approaching, getting inside construction work in the bitter northeast is a dream. It might not happen until spring so we need money to live until then.

But here's the kicker. I believe that God did not bring us back home to let us fall apart again. I believe he's given me so many verses with promises in them that he will carry us through this. I believe even when  I have days when I say, "Really God? Isn't this enough?"

So I want to announce to the world that God is working right here in this small town in PA. He's building my faith. He's building my husband's faith. He's not just building a home.



13 comments:

Carol Garvin said...

I appreciate your honesty here and your faith, Terri. Faith is much easier when everything is going smoothly. When things don't work out as we hope, it's hard not to blame God for not caring, or ourselves for not having enough faith when in fact neither is true.

Long ago I learned the reality of 2 Cor.1:8,9: "We were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead." I firmly believe we will never be burdened beyond the limits of our ability to survive, if we depend totally on him for our strength and sustenance.

I pray that all your needs will be met in the coming days.

Karen Lange said...

It's a blessing and an encouragement to see things move along and to hear your confession. God is working, that's for sure, and it will all come together as it should. :)

Lily Robinson said...

His blessings still amaze me. He is greater than all your worries. he is enough.

Lin Floyd said...

There always a gift with each challenge but it's not always what we expect...

Lynda R Young said...

He gives us what we need, when we need it, and He gives us love all the time.
Best wishes for the build.

Joanne Sher said...

Wow - you GO girl. Praying for you - GOd's got it covered. But that's just what you said, right?

Heidi Willis said...

This is beautiful - both in written word and in spiritual faith.

I have enjoyed seeing the house go up through facebook, and watching you rejoice in faith.

"Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." You are building a house. God is building you. :)

Susan said...

Well, Terri, praise the Lord. He's taking care of every detail, isn't He? Even the tiniest! Praise Him! Susan

Trisha said...

A great testimony! Just another reminder that God said, walk upright before me and I will give you the desires of your heart. He is ever faithful to those who love him.
Blessings, Trisha

Deb Shucka said...

From the time I first discovered your blog, you have been evidence to me of God's grace and blessings and love. Thank you for another inspiring post. Sending prayers your way.

Cheryl Klarich said...

Hi Terri!

Love this. It has been good for me to read about your journey... Though we haven't changed homes, the housing bubble burst and left us with... suds... so I know how you feel. I pray that your new home is filled with blessings and wonderful surprises that only Jesus himself can supply.

Nikki (Sarah) said...

OMG Terri...I had chills reading this. I love your kicker...I love your declaration of faith. And know this....I'm standing in agreement with both of you. God brought you guys back to PA not to leave you out in the 'cold' but to work a new and amazing thing. Hugs from my heart to yours.

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

I've obviously missed something. I thought you were in Florida now. Prayers for a swift entrance into your sweet, long-for home.