I should have been an accountant. I'm too organized and I over analyze every thing. That includes my writing.
So here's my update as blunt as I can be.
I wrote my first book over ten years ago because I had to write it. I poured myself into it and gave a copy to a friend. Oh wow did that first draft really stink. (No other way to say it.) So I edited and edited for years, sent it to Barbour and they rejected it. Finally I sent it to a publisher in England this past year and lo and behold, she accepted it but after many months of changes, do you believe this? I pulled out due to some issues I couldn't live with.
During that time frame, I wrote two-thirds of another romance with a character from the first and another woman's fiction book that is almost done as well.
I sent the first book to two agents, one of which said no thanks after asking for the first 50 pages. The second agent (after 2 months) passed it on to another agent in the office. It's been awhile so you know where my thoughts are going with that one.
So here I am wondering what on earth to do next. I seem to have success writing short stories (nonfiction) but wonder if I will ever see a book of mine in print. I was so close but couldn't go forward and maybe I was stupid but at the time my choice seemed right. And yes, still does today.
Then I read Janna's post the other day about outlining a book and if that's the way to go. I've never done that--I usually dive in head first and then wonder why I am not loving everything I write. But when I write a short story, I usually have it all plotted before I sit at the computer.
Her words encouraged me this weekend to give that method a try instead of moaning the loss of spent energy on the past books.
I had a goal to have a new book done and ready to present by the time a writer's conference in March came around but now I have decided to not push it and let the story develop at its own pace.
So I pulled out one of my own notebooks, Janna, (not as pretty as yours) and I've started again. What else can a writer do?