I was in a bad mood yesterday morning. It was time for my yearly mammogram. Now, I really don't mind going to get it done. What I mind is the wait afterward. Will I get a call saying I need to go back or will I be given another year's reprieve?
I almost put off going for a few more months, but whenever I considered it, I either heard about or read about someone who had gotten breast cancer. This is not the year I want to receive bad medical news. My insurance has changed, I have a doctor I don't like, we're still unemployed and we have financial needs.
I've been trusting God with all the other areas in my life but for some reason, I shrank at trusting him with my health. So where is my faith? I thought. After wrestling with my fears, I finally gave in. If he is big enough to take care of everything else in my life, He is big enough to trust in this area--the area that trips me every year.
It's funny how we give over some parts of our lives but not everything. I've done that with my writing, too. I've trusted him enough to know that if he wants me to write for him, he'll give me the opportunities to share. But when the struggle to put the right words down on paper becomes too much, I take back that faith. I let my fears overcome me. I want to put my writing off just like I wanted to with the appointment.
Are you letting your fears of failure prevent you from writing? Are your fears stopping you from taking whatever the next step is you need to take?