Confession time

I have a confession to make.

I haven't been giving God all the credit he deserves.

Many of my friends on Facebook know we are building a house. I mean that in the literal sense. My husband and I are doing all the work with only a little help from a few people we hired on the roof and to help him lay the block. Otherwise, it's all on us.

Several people have asked when we expect to move in. I give vague answers because I don't know. It's not that I'm waiting for the carpet to be laid or the appliances to be installed. Far from that. I'm actually hoping and praying we can move in with one bathroom done, the walls sheet rocked and the outlets covered. Forget siding, tile, curtains, and cupboards or counter tops.

It's been a hard six years since Florida and the recession. But my husband and I are still together and now living back home surrounded by friends and family. I used to keep a blessing sheet so I could see God at work in the little things--it also helped me survive. But now I trust Him more.

He's at work again you see. We're building this house on limited funds. People can no longer get loans who are self-employed. It no longer matters that your credit scores rock or you are debt free. No, the recession changed all that. So we are building with the money we have left after a long run of unemployment and part-time jobs and starting over. That doesn't leave a lot. My husband is building it full time. That means no income. Years ago, when we built our first home, he worked days at his real job and built at night.

When you are pushing sixty, that scenario doesn't work anymore. He tried it.

So we are in this race to get into our house before we run out of money. And with winter approaching, getting inside construction work in the bitter northeast is a dream. It might not happen until spring so we need money to live until then.

But here's the kicker. I believe that God did not bring us back home to let us fall apart again. I believe he's given me so many verses with promises in them that he will carry us through this. I believe even when  I have days when I say, "Really God? Isn't this enough?"

So I want to announce to the world that God is working right here in this small town in PA. He's building my faith. He's building my husband's faith. He's not just building a home.