Saturday, January 05, 2019

Thinking about what I've been doing

Every time I release a new book, the same old doubts resurface. Why am I writing? The marketing is getting harder and harder and if you don't push your book, no one finds it. I think this past fall, I over did it. I was writing many words a day and had this big plan to rapid release a few romance books while my next suspense simmers in my mind.

What happened? I shut it all down. My first romance didn't garner that many reviews which I need, and I am so over begging readers to leave a comment--good or bad. But I'd written my newest book, Sunshine, and really found I liked it more than Mandy.

So I committed to releasing it.

It's up for pre-order but my heart wonders if I have what it takes anymore to get it in the hands of people who might enjoy it.

Gone are the days when a writer could write, give the book to a publisher and agent and they do all the work. I've been with a publishing house and self-published and today the writer must wear all the hats.

Maybe I'm due for a long rest.

Maybe my next book should be it.

I hate giving away my books or reducing the price to some ridiculous amount anymore. I work hard on my books and like any profession, we are due a decent wage. But to use many of the advertising platforms out there, you must do that. Do they work? Sometimes yes. Sometimes no.

Every writer knows they can't stop writing. I certainly do. I love the art of creating something from nothing. But I also need to look at the bigger picture. Is selling a thousand or so books worth the aggravation anymore?

Most people would say yes it is. Getting your book into that one reader's hands is worth it.

Then how does one stop the self-doubt? The insecurities and the burnout?

This post is an honest review of where I'm at right now. Good or bad, I need prayer to figure out my next step with my writing.

It's been a long run and maybe, maybe God has something else planned for me.

5 comments:

Lillian Robinson said...

It is work! And with the never-ending mountain of free to almost-free ebooks out there, it's hard for readers to plunk down several dollars on a writer they don't know. I think that is the big advantage to having your books on KU. But then, you experienced first hand the disadvantage.

If only more people understood why reviews are important.

But you are a writer. So you write. And now you're only going to write what you enjoy writing! Let that breathe life back into your keyboard.

quietspirit said...

Terri: I completely understand what you are saying and feeling. I have been praying for you, now I know how to pray more than "Be with Terri." We all need to take the time to reevaluate where we are and where God wants us to be in our calling.

ShirlAnn said...

Maybe it's time to let it rest, do what lies before you each day, and quietly wait to see where God leads you next.

Lynn J Simpson, PLC said...

When the fruit is not appearing as we hope or as we believe it should, we can sure lose heart in our ventures. A friend of mine reminded me that God is our safe place in all our endeavours, all our circumstances, and He loves us no matter what. Maybe that's a place to start when questioning what we are doing? I'm questioning too! You are not alone, ever!

Lynda R Young said...

You have my prayer. I must admit that your journey through self publishing was what encouraged me to self publish--and I hope to release my YA Fantasy series this year. I'm a little jaded when it comes to traditional publishing now that the authors, who get the lowest cut out of the book, need to do the most work. I hope you do continue to write. I'm halfway through Escape and I'm enjoying it. (I'm not a big reader of romance, though). And your covers are absolutely beautiful. I suspect that with more books you have out there, it might get a little easier.